Did I deserve for my boyfriend to do this to me?!?

I hate cheaters,but this doesn't sound like cheating to me. He was looking for love with you, but you turned him away. He wasn't looking for love with that Amsterdam girl. What he said about being "done" shouldn't matter because you weren't together. If you still love him, then date him for real, and stop hanging the past over his head. If he cheats while you're dating then drop him like a bad habit.